Hi! This is my story..
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Salaam,
Hi, im a 49 year old woman, when i was 35 years old i started to do salat
and after my salat usually siting in silent and repeat god's name and one day i came to the point i like this portion of my pray more than the actual pray then every day i was looking for this section of my pray and every day i start to do this more in complete silent just like meditation then one day really i felt the present of god and unity with god then i decided instead salat do only meditation you dont have to say a few words in arabic which ou dont understand even though i know the meaning in my lanaguage i could not concentrate then i dicided to do only meditation and i felt a lot closer to god and after i find out about this site and other site i find out you can pray anyway you like just like meditation or even reading any verse from quran in any way you like, that's how i find god.Peace,
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hi Unity,
welcome to the forum )
i got the same experience as yours on prayers. i can read arabic but i don't understand the words, so got to see the translation for that. the problem when i do the prayer is that i don't understand the meaning naturally, and quite often that makes my mind wander about and forgot the arabic words i'm reciting lol
i guess, for now, i'm happy with meditating. i can concentrate more, plus i can do it anytime i want, even when i woke up in the middle of the night in my sleep, i would meditate and think about god and life. so far it works like that pray