My Story - Alen.

Alen

As salamu alaykum.
Respectfully.

I was born in a family that came from Bosnia to Slovenia in 1969. My parents were muslims, sunnis but when all of thsoe sunnis came to Slovenia, they somehow abandoned religion and i realised many years alter that they came here, not because Islam was extremely oppressed in Yugoslavia because of the communist regime, but they all came here for economic reasons.

I wa always afraid of some strange force bigger then me. I knew that certain things were just not allowed and i somehow thought that if i drank beer or smoked, i'd be punished, i didn't know by whom or by what or how and when but i knew there was something out there.

My parents didn't teach me about Islam but the basics. I knew there wwere like 5 prayers a day, fasting, Hajj, charity, be good, don't kill and such. But then i started to pray and once i learned most about Islam and i started reading Quran, more and more question appeared.

I wanted to know where Paradise is, how to avoid Hell and such questions gave birth to my insomnia. I wondered what this life is, why am i here. I checked the internet, i copied dozens and dozens of pages, i printed endless pages on Islam, i researched, i studied hard and in 2004 i ran into www.quran-islam.org and then i relaized that Islamj is not what one sees on CNN or any other programme.

I started bigger research. I stopped going to the local mosque because they hanged pictures of Ka'aba in the direction where we pray and i wondered how that could be because we, muslims, always preached that there shouldn't be ANY pictures in the mosque. The imam told me that a photo of a Ka'aba is okay.

Then i seiously stopped going to the mosque and only go sometimes because i discovered that praying with people who mention Muhammad in their prayer is just like if i went to church and prayed with them.

Now, my mother was a sunni but then she quit Islam but not completely, she is committing a shirk and wants me to do the same which is why i hurried and made a mistake when i didn't get the entry visa when i entered the States on January this year.

I wanted to leave the apartment but i can't find a job that quickly because even when they pay you good, there's no time to pray and i can't sell my religion for a good-payed job, you know?

I mean, i can get a job within a second, really, i can go to the city right now and get a job by the end of the day. But then i wouldn't be allowed to pray at work and it's really hard when i come home and have to pray in total secrecy. My brother watches the door while i pray and then we change.

That's why i got deported. I hurried, i wasn't patient enough and now i have not only wait but i have to be even more patient then ever before. It's hard,y es, but i'm stuck here and it's probably all my fault. I'll have to deal with it. I'm waiting for my lawyer in San Francisco to get my case going. I hope this won't take much time.

I can't stay in Slovenia, i can't, i'm afraid i might become a bad muslim, this forum is the only interesting thing i got and if i don't leave, .... i don't know.
I don't wanna stay here, that's for sure, that's all i know. I know that i sound a little too depressed, too dramatic but i guess i can only blame myself.

If you brothers and sisters can pray openly, be grateful to Allah Almighty for that. You have no idea what a blessing it is when you can pray without watching when your mom will eject you out of the apartment if she caught you.

My story i longer but i don't wanna steal space or time.
God Bless you all.
As salamu alaykum.

andy

Salamun 'alaikum brother Alen,

welcome

Alen

As salamu alaykum.
Respectfully.

Thanks, andy.
If anyone here is from Mexico, i was wondering if he can help me with finding a room there. I'd like to spend like 6 maybe 12 months there.
Or anywhere else outside European Union. Middle East, Africa, China, Australia, Japan, South America ....
Thanks.
As salamu alakyum.

phoenix1

My parents didn't teach me about Islam but the basics. I knew there wwere like 5 prayers a day, fasting, Hajj, charity, be good, don't kill and such. But then i started to pray and once i learned most about Islam and i started reading Quran, more and more question appeared.

peace Alen,

exactly what happened with me. What's ironic is that it isn't until you become a die hard religious person do you start to doubt your beliefs.
I had to look at the quran from a completely different angle (and one that made more sense as time went on), and I think you have to as well. We have to let go of all our influences and biases before we can see the truth.

Alen

My parents didn't teach me about Islam but the basics. I knew there wwere like 5 prayers a day, fasting, Hajj, charity, be good, don't kill and such. But then i started to pray and once i learned most about Islam and i started reading Quran, more and more question appeared.

peace Alen,

exactly what happened with me. What's ironic is that it isn't until you become a die hard religious person do you start to doubt your beliefs.
I had to look at the quran from a completely different angle (and one that made more sense as time went on), and I think you have to as well. We have to let go of all our influences and biases before we can see the truth.

As salamu alaykum.
Respectfully.

Interesting, but i never, ever had any doubts about my beliefs. The only doubts i had were around hadith. I never liked them from the start. And now i'm really free.

As salamu alaykum.

phoenix1

well, maybe you should have doubts about your beliefs.

Alen

well, maybe you should have doubts about your beliefs.

As salamu alaykum.
Respectfully.

Why?
Explain in detail.
I mean, i pray to Allah Most Merciful that He guieds me and He did. Now i know more then i did when i read the Qur'an for the 1. time. Thank Allah for that.

As salamu alaykum. sun

phoenix1

peace

thanks for asking why.
We should always keep questioning ourselves. In fact, we should keep questioning everything around us. Questions lead to answers. If we never doubt, if we just accept everything the way it is, then we cannot learn, we cannnot progress.
You have to question ourselves, the quran, the people around you, just as you questioned the hadith. Because what we think is true can be nothing more than what we think is true.
And we shouldnt be afraid to ask questions because if something is true, thats how it will turn out in the end.
peace

Alen

peace

thanks for asking why.
We should always keep questioning ourselves. In fact, we should keep questioning everything around us. Questions lead to answers. If we never doubt, if we just accept everything the way it is, then we cannot learn, we cannnot progress.
You have to question ourselves, the quran, the people around you, just as you questioned the hadith. Because what we think is true can be nothing more than what we think is true.
And we shouldnt be afraid to ask questions because if something is true, thats how it will turn out in the end.
peace

As salamu alaykum.
Respectfully.

I know, we must always research and investigate all and everything.
Good point.
Thanks.
As salamu alaykum.

Isis

SalamZ ~

Islam as we chose to call it ~ is SIMPLE ...... its only Life tts complicated....

Abide by the Koran and surely the Lord will guide you, undoubtly

There is so much to life then rituals and acceptance...

I am way past the point where I argue and hide ....... I am what I am and as long as I
have the Lord to guide me ....... I shall be brave to conquer my emotions ..

Isis out ~

Alen

As salamu alaykum.
Respectfully.

I agree completely. I use to hide the fact that i follow ONLY the Qur'an but now i freely say that i'm a Qur'an alone muslim and i do not attack sunnis by sayin they should reject hadith or sunna. I always qoute Qur'an my religion to me, yours to you.
I hope i said it right.

As salamu alaykum.

unknownuser

salam alaykum

why do you have to say your a quran alone muslim
dont label yourself liek the sunnis and shais and others do

your simply muslim

if they ant to know fi oyur follow hadeeth then they are gonna just ahve to ask..

why do you feel the need to explain yourself to them?

also why cant you get a job

who said you have to pray at work?

it seems your self defeating....

amanda

Alen

I seek refuge in The God, The mOst Powerful, from satan the rejected.
As salamu alaykum.
Respectfully.

I always say i am just a muslim but then when a sunni mention hadith and says this or that about it and if it offencive, then i have to say something. Like, if the hadith is insulting to anyone and i say for example, i say, wait, i think hadith shouldn't be followed because of this and that, the sunni will say."You don't follow sunn and hadith? Well, then you're gonna go to Hell!!!"

That's when i tell them i am a muslim who follows Qur'an alone.
But lately i always say, i am just a believer.
As salaum alaykum wr wb.

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