Quranists: Does your connection with Allah feel different?(Than before quranism)
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Salaam,
I used to enjoy my own company and then I became immersed with people and their problems. I became everyone's agony aunt, but completly neglected myself in the process for many years. Then I realised that to do service to God, one must first be equitable to one's own self rather than focussing on other people. It is good that you want to socialise, in fact it is imperative for your daughter's development, which you have already pointed out. I am just an anomaly! And a very happy one at that! )
Salaam.
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Peace Es,
I can relate. I took some time off from friends and family as well, but of course, my condition was by force since my friends disappeared. Though, after awhile, the peace did set in. These days, I am looking to get back and out, and make some friends. We recently moved to a different state, and I have a six month old daughter. I want to socialize her and meet some women in my age group. I just miss girl time sometimes.
Okay....my daughter is six months old too...this just keeps getting better and better...
I know how you feel about girl time...when I was married I just wanted some girlfriends to hang out with, talk about islam and do "muslimah" things. My ex was so controlling and suspicious that I never really got to go the masjid much, so it never happened. The one girlfriend I do have is much older, has kids my age, and it gets hard to relate to her because she takes on a a motherly role most of the time...I don't need a mother, I need a friend. Looks like for now, I have my e-friends here on the site...and that is okay.
Peace es,
I agree with you too. I have come to understand that first and foremost I have a personal responsibility to my worship. As a christian, I was so busy trying to get everyone else to believe and get "saved" (yeesh) that I neglected my worship. I do enjoy that aspect of my worship now, as it has taught me to keep my mouth closed and not be so judgemental of others.
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Asalam Aleykom )
The reason I ask this is because when I denounced sunnism and embraced "quranism" (God Alone/Quran Alone), the way I connected with God feels very different now. I'm not sure how to describe it. I feel like a huge burden has been lifted from me, and like what was once a cluttered heart, feels so clear and "empty" (in a good way, I think).
Also I don't find myself burdened with guilt, shame or unworthiness like I slumbered most of my life feeling. And it feels like the "voices" in my head have quieted and I almost feel like the calm before the storm. I have to admit I'm wondering if Allah "has left" me (forgive me Allah for the comparison but or else it was shaytan that has left). It's just so quiet inside me! I also feel less fearful (terrified) of Allah. Very much less. I'm not sure if that last one is a good thing..I guess I'm still going through "shock". I only just "reverted" three weeks ago.
I definitely feel liberated though.
I'm curious to know what everyone else felt/feels in terms of their connection with God. Please share )
nothing special coz I was always like this,yes it feels like being in space tempt
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Peace Amina )
I'm thinking of joining one of those mommy and me groups, and meeting people through that avenue. Though, I may not meet any Quran only muslims in the process. I would not mind going to the movies, dinner, or shopping with these women. However, I would just refrain from drinking alcohol, or taking part in any vulgar discussions. I am just toying with the idea though..very unsure.
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Salaam scaredmuslimah,
You are divorced now?
Wa Salaam Bender,
Yes...I am divorced now, Al Hamdulilah. I don't know how much longer I could have lived like that.
-Amina
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Peace Amina )
I'm thinking of joining one of those mommy and me groups, and meeting people through that avenue. Though, I may not meet any Quran only muslims in the process. I would not mind going to the movies, dinner, or shopping with these women. However, I would just refrain from drinking alcohol, or taking part in any vulgar discussions. I am just toying with the idea though..very unsure.
Peace,
I have one girlfriend that is absolutely wonderful. We became close friends after working together for a few months. She doesn't care that I am Muslim, didn't care when I covered and doesn't care that I no longer cover. We go to the movies, shopping, art fairs, etc. I am so grateful for her.
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Peace Amina,
You are so blessed to have a friend like that. I'll tell you over private message of a couple that my husband met randomly. I believe they are also Quran only or at least very progressive in their thinking.
I think your experience is very reassuring. I think I am definitely going to try, and meet up with some of these women. Hopefully, I will meet at least one person who will accept as I am, God willing.