Salam again ;) It's something I want to tell you

Maryah

I feel stupid. The first thing I do when I had created a user here is to say that I am afraid of hell. My other user is " Elin" . But I do not feel like using the user, because I feel has come so bad out. That you think I 'm weird and a sinner .

I can well tell you a little about myself . I never left Islam first time in real, I just thought, " Is Jesus God ?" " Maybe he is " Finally I realized that it goes totally against Islam. Then I felt that I had left Islam , even though it really was not meant to be. I felt like a " dirty " Muslim. I went to an imam . And had taken shahada again. He said, " If you do something stupid again you just may not go to heaven ." I started wearing hijab and abaya . I felt fantastic. But then I was active on facebook Muslim groups. I read more and more about Islam. And found lots of evil , in addition to this group there were lots of extreme opinions. The groups said they were not true Muslim if you do not support the death penalty against gays etc. I said against them and they said " You have to just accept what is Islam."

I got hurt inside me . Was Islam really like that ? I thought for days and chose to leave Islam. I knew about this website. But I did not have enough knowledge about this direction and had on a wat"forgotten " it. I thought not good enough before I left Islam. I did not think I could choose this direction instead . It was very black / white thinking. Whether Sunni Islam, or nothing.

After a few months (which is this month ) I was out of my mind . I knew Islam was true. I knew deep down that hell exists. I thought it imam said . I cried and cried. Shivering and was bad for both mental and physical .

I searched on net and found this

Indeed , those who have believed then disbelieved , then believed , then disbelieved , and then Increased in disbelief - never will Allah forgive them , nor will He guide them to a way .

People wrote that because of the verse could not be forgiven and return to Islam. At the same time I thought of the Iman said . But I write here . And got answers like " You must believe in the Quran , not what others tell you"

It made me see sura with brand new eyes . It says " then disbelieved , and then Increased in disbelief " Note " then Increased in disbelief " Which means that if one continues to be incredulous as it goes bad . So one could change it. and elsewhere in the Quran it said that God forgives all sins . God does not contradict itself and that only goes bad if you die unbelievers.

I have read more about quran only direction in recent days. It gives such good sense. It is the Islam I have always believed in and love . I choose to trust in the Koran where it says clearly that I should not continue as unbelievers but repent even though I 've made a lot of mistakes . I trust God's word. Thanks for all the responses I got. I hope you not think of me as a sinner and bad human . But I can understand if you do. But just know I'm improving myself . Those days I was beside myself because of uncertainty and Hell was the most horrible of my life. I will never experience again .

This is a fantastic website . If it had not been for you I would still cry and most likely never felt like a Muslim again . And then I would definitely go to hell . I have become a Muslim again . One who follows the word of God , not man's words.

Peace be with you and thank you for your help. Say it again I hope you dont look down on me. I have created a new user because I want to start again on a better way . I do not want to be known as her who made her first thread about hell.

That was all

NielsJacob

Peace Maryah

We thank God for that you actually never gave up faith.
You have come to some beautiful understanding.
I believe that you are one having the prayer come through Guide us to the straight path.
17 The path of those You have blessed, not of those who have incurred the wrath, nor the misguided.

Thanks for sharing and stay blessed.

Maryah

Peace Maryah

We thank God for that you actually never gave up faith.
You have come to some beautiful understanding.
I believe that you are one having the prayer come through Guide us to the straight path.
17 The path of those You have blessed, not of those who have incurred the wrath, nor the misguided.

Thanks for sharing and stay blessed.

Thanks for the answer. You made me smile I'm so glad you do not judge me. I will.

Peace be upon you.

aqua

Salam Maryah. Don't worry about the other username; God has enlightened you with good understanding and you can think positive from now. Whatever you do, please don't go to an 'Imam' again. They will take you away from the teachings of the Qur'an and will tell you a lot of baseless opinions. You can always seek guidance directly from the Qur'an and also discuss with us any topics. I pray that God keeps you happy and increases peace in your heart.

wasi

salam maryah

the best way to know about ISLAM , GOD is by studying alone .....because there are 3 features involved

your soul
shaitaaan
AAYAAT or SIGNS of your LORD

try this it is really a nice GAME OF LIFE played ...you can identify shaitaan how he come and what does he does
and also allah or GOD is also present

allah gives you tools or weapons to fight with shaitan just like in games.......and then if you WIN the game your are awarded with ISLAM

or i should say the game of unseen

Maryah

Salam Maryah. Don't worry about the other username; God has enlightened you with good understanding and you can think positive from now. Whatever you do, please don't go to an 'Imam' again. They will take you away from the teachings of the Qur'an and will tell you a lot of baseless opinions. You can always seek guidance directly from the Qur'an and also discuss with us any topics. I pray that God keeps you happy and increases peace in your heart.

Thanks for the answer ) it means much
I'm not going to go to the Imam again. I'm sure. Thank you! Is very nice of you

God bless you

Maryah

salam maryah

the best way to know about ISLAM , GOD is by studying alone .....because there are 3 features involved

your soul
shaitaaan
AAYAAT or SIGNS of your LORD

try this it is really a nice GAME OF LIFE played ...you can identify shaitaan how he come and what does he does
and also allah or GOD is also present

allah gives you tools or weapons to fight with shaitan just like in games.......and then if you WIN the game your are awarded with ISLAM

or i should say the game of unseen

Salam!
Thank you
Thats so true. One can compare it that way

wasi

Salam!
Thank you )
Thats so true. One can compare it that way

few more points to add

the best conditions is night time for studies

because you need to identify LIAL A TUL QADR night

and use lamp instead to light in the room .....as darkness place a great role in heading our journey with allah

and you should also be able to sense that ALLAH is talking to you

allah talks always on 3 conditions
Proof 425
It is not for any bashar that Allah should speak to him 1) except by revelation or 2) from behind a hijabin or 3)sending a messenger to reveal by his permissions. What he wills, indeed he is most high , the most wise..

so the most probable condition here is HIJAAAB ..... and revelation

and say to allah that you called musa in hijaab n spoke with him ...but i came all alone so will you not guide me ...i need your guidance my lord ....as i dont wanna go to hell ...save me from shaitaan .....,,,,but this is my idea ...you can generate your idea

Zulf

Peace Maryah,

I would suggest the following

Approach God directly.
This can be done by just sitting down in privacy and praise and thank God for all things in your life. Ask God to show you the truth, increase you in understanding and remove your fear and blindness. This is what I do. You need to get into a praising, happy mood when asking and thanking God. Don't think about doing it the correct way. Let go of the fear and just thank, praise and ask God for insight, wisdom and righteousness. Forget all about what religious authority is saying. They'll just bring fear into your mind, and fear will only paralyze, limit and shut you down. God's way is increase, growth, abundance, goodness, generosity, joy, compassion.... not fear. The evil forces will definitely try to thwart all steps towards purification and ascension. It's up to you to choose God and ignore fear. We become fearful when we don't understand who and what we are and when we don't understand God's greatness. Fear comes when we resist our natural inclination towards goodness. Fear comes when we focus on small, petty issues and details, totally losing scope of the bigger picture. Don't listen to the negative and confused human beings claiming to be religious authority.. they will just confuse you. Go straight to God. Ask God directly! Your heart knows how to do it!

Set your direction on God and goodness. Ask God to guide you and start listening to your heart... not your fearful mind!

Peace and best wishes!
sun

Little_Mannie

Peace Maryah,

I would suggest the following

Approach God directly.
This can be done by just sitting down in privacy and praise and thank God for all things in your life. Ask God to show you the truth, increase you in understanding and remove your fear and blindness. This is what I do. You need to get into a praising, happy mood when asking and thanking God. Don't think about doing it the correct way. Let go of the fear and just thank, praise and ask God for insight, wisdom and righteousness. Forget all about what religious authority is saying. They'll just bring fear into your mind, and fear will only paralyze, limit and shut you down. God's way is increase, growth, abundance, goodness, generosity, joy, compassion.... not fear. The evil forces will definitely try to thwart all steps towards purification and ascension. It's up to you to choose God and ignore fear. We become fearful when we don't understand who and what we are and when we don't understand God's greatness. Fear comes when we resist our natural inclination towards goodness. Fear comes when we focus on small, petty issues and details, totally losing scope of the bigger picture. Don't listen to the negative and confused human beings claiming to be religious authority.. they will just confuse you. Go straight to God. Ask God directly! Your heart knows how to do it!

Set your direction on God and goodness. Ask God to guide you and start listening to your heart... not your fearful mind!

Peace and best wishes!
sun

This post reached me at random. I too am feeling the positive vibration of vindication! Shine on brothers and sisters! group

Maryah

few more points to add

the best conditions is night time for studies

because you need to identify LIAL A TUL QADR night

and use lamp instead to light in the room .....as darkness place a great role in heading our journey with allah

and you should also be able to sense that ALLAH is talking to you

allah talks always on 3 conditions
Proof 425
It is not for any bashar that Allah should speak to him 1) except by revelation or 2) from behind a hijabin or 3)sending a messenger to reveal by his permissions. What he wills, indeed he is most high , the most wise..

so the most probable condition here is HIJAAAB ..... and revelation

and say to allah that you called musa in hijaab n spoke with him ...but i came all alone so will you not guide me ...i need your guidance my lord ....as i dont wanna go to hell ...save me from shaitaan .....,,,,but this is my idea ...you can generate your idea

Thanks for the good advice Means a lot, and it help me

Maryah

Peace Maryah,

I would suggest the following

Approach God directly.
This can be done by just sitting down in privacy and praise and thank God for all things in your life. Ask God to show you the truth, increase you in understanding and remove your fear and blindness. This is what I do. You need to get into a praising, happy mood when asking and thanking God. Don't think about doing it the correct way. Let go of the fear and just thank, praise and ask God for insight, wisdom and righteousness. Forget all about what religious authority is saying. They'll just bring fear into your mind, and fear will only paralyze, limit and shut you down. God's way is increase, growth, abundance, goodness, generosity, joy, compassion.... not fear. The evil forces will definitely try to thwart all steps towards purification and ascension. It's up to you to choose God and ignore fear. We become fearful when we don't understand who and what we are and when we don't understand God's greatness. Fear comes when we resist our natural inclination towards goodness. Fear comes when we focus on small, petty issues and details, totally losing scope of the bigger picture. Don't listen to the negative and confused human beings claiming to be religious authority.. they will just confuse you. Go straight to God. Ask God directly! Your heart knows how to do it!

Set your direction on God and goodness. Ask God to guide you and start listening to your heart... not your fearful mind!

Peace and best wishes!
sun

Thank you ! It was good advice . You are right. I should think differently . Peace to you too !