salaam dark, Just like you do, I'm moslem by birth. And yeah, we have a little commonality of having parents with similar approach when it comes to religion. However, that doesn't mean we have to follow all of their words in our search for the truth. To my opinion, it's even might be wrong to do so. You don't have to be afraid of anything so long as you've done your best and follow your heart. Mind you, that we've been given a not so clear guide within ourself, our heart. Just follow what it says, of course judge it with your logic too whenever it makes you doubt about something. In my opinion, we would only obtain the so-called "peace" when our logic/mind, our heart, and what we do are leading to the same direction. We don't need to be afraid. My experiences have taught me that the more you struggle you find the truth in Islam, the more you will feel "peace" and close to God, no matter how hard the problem you face. Moreover, oddly enough, those "peace" comes when I face ever stronger obstacles. I don't know why. just my two cent -- half-way around the globe, sleepless coding and number crunching ;D greetz, Pinczakko