I have thinking for several days in the biggest problem my alive. I have cry and cry . I have wondering If I should return to Islam or not. I have come to conclusion. I've done a lot of stupid. I've thought a lot about what the imam said. That I might not be forgiven on the Day of Judgment. But really imam decide it? I have read some of the Koran. And it says something completely different.
Should I really did not become Muslim again because the imam said I might not be forgiven? I do not think so. I believe in the Quran says, not what the Imam says.
Here are some Suras that have gotten me better mentally.
Say "O 'Ibadi (My slaves) who have transgressed against themelves (city Committing evil deeds and sins)! Despair not of the Mercy of Allah, Verily Allah forgives ALL sins. Truly, He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful. And turn in repentance and in obedience with true Faith (Islamic monotheism) to your Lord and submit to Him, (in Islam), before the torment comes upon you, then you will not be helped. "S. 3953-54
How Shall God guide a people who have disbelieved after they believed, and drilling witness that the Messenger is true, and the clear signs came two them? God guides not the people of the evildoers. Those - their recompense is that there Shall rest on them the curse of God and of the angels and of men, altogether, Therein dwelling forever, the chastisement Shall not be lightened for them, no respite Shall be given them.BUT those who repent thereafter, and make amends - God is All-forgiving, All-compassionate.
Surely those who disbelieve after they have believed and then increase item in unbelief - their repentance Shall not be accepted; those are the ones who stray.
I've thought a lot about this. And the way I interpret it is that if you continue to not believe then it goes wrong. It's the "and then increase in unbelief" Which means you can improve and go to the right path.
In addition, is there another place in the Quran
Surely those who disbelieve, and die disbelieving, there Shall not be accepted from any one of them the whole earth full of gold, if he would ransom himself thereby, for them awaits a painful chastisement, and they Shall have no helpers. S. 386-91 Arberry
So I must remember this. Allah does not contradict itself.
He said, "Say" O 'Ibadi (My slaves) who have transgressed against themelves (city Committing evil deeds and sins)! Despair not of the Mercy of Allah, Verily Allah forgives ALL sins. Truly, He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful "
So my conclusion is that I should trust the word of Allah. In the Holy Quran. Not what people are saying. I have also thought a lot about my direction in Islam. And I can not follow Sunni Islam when they rely more on people than the Koran. I feel Qur'an, nothing else. Now I have more peace of mind.