Assalam Alaikoum everyone amanda your story sounds so familiar i also met some strange people along the way and have all but lost my islam at this point but there is something that makes me struggle on and was doing a search and found this amazing site i also feared the jinn in the toilet at one point and many other strange things but when a sister told me that losing my job and being put on the street was the will of Allah (swt) i just couldnt cop that yeh im sure it was part of gods plan but to have it said to you like that and to say fear Allah ive always been closer to things i loved and this is also true of god when i began to fear more than i loved i lost that amazing spiritual feeling i had with god and huge love and turned into something sinister and ugly anyways this site has given some spark even at 3am looking forward to seeing more of everyone take care all