Elke, Zenje and AhmedBhagat, Thanks for welcoming and your inputs. It took me five years or so, shrugging the hadith info from my mind, and the guilt of rejecting the hadith as a source of info for God's religion. Reading the Hadith voluntarily when I was between 12-16 years of age, I had come to a confused situation where I believed I can never satisfy God and never be eligible for Heaven! But then I had nowhere to go and ask further questions, as the mullahs and imams were ready to thrash me for my "stupid" questions. Alhamdullillah, I feel more relaxed and stronger now, but still it is a long way to go.