I am happy to find this site. I was deeply religious all my life which is quite strange in this culture (am dutch).
My experiences with christianity in youth were disastrous . Later i discovered that this was only due to the people, and the institute, but that God does exist and is above everything.I read many books about religion and prayed alone. I even became interested in new age meditation but those that i found were all after money and power, and their meditation methods all of them were dangerous.
About ten years ago, on internet i heard quran and fell in love with quran and islam totally and fully. All doubts gone but the visits to the mosques and my trying to adapt to the sunni lifestyle were very clumsy.
Having to dress up in hijab etc for a big fat old lady, i tripped over the clothes, I reject those clothes.They make me ill and have nothing to do with Allah for me. i did not fit in with the other women,and those of my age did not or only little speak english or dutch. etc. etc. i am sure many of you recognize all this.
I also had the feeling that for muslim ladies what counted was the hijab (as dark and uncomfortable as possible), reciting quran and in fact also being married and housewife. But my feelings have nothing to do with that at all.
I have full respect for decent christians muslims etc. Just express my personal experiences here.
So this site is very good for me for support. I hope that in the future there will be mosques for quranists.
I study arabic now and try to pray as well as i can and read a lot. Religion is for me the only real importance in life.
I think i am one of the oldest people here or maybe the oldest, i hope that is no problem.
