Thank you, Bender for the warm welcome.

I'm an American woman who found Islam about 9 years ago. I'm here because my personal beliefs no longer fit in with what is considered main stream Islam, and I don't know how to deal with it or how to tell people. I need some guidance.

I was immeidately attracted to it because it seemed simple and clear cut. I prayed faithfully, fasted enthusiastically, and started wearing hijab almost immediately because that's what I thought was expected of me. I learned from sources mostly online, but also by reading books, watching videos, and learning from other Muslims.
Islam for me filled in so many holes in belief that I had as a Christian. I was taught how the Bible was so corrupt and I realized that I couldn't possibly base my beliefs on something obviously not divine. Now I find myself feeling the same way about Hadith.

I just don't understand how a religion which is supposed to be complete and easy to understand has become something that some Muslims claim cannot be fully understood, especailly without understanding Arabic or being a scholar.
The Quran claims to be a book fully detailed, yet so many things exist in Hadith that are not even mentioned in Quran. Would God really forget to leave these things out? NO.

I know that the majority of you in this forum know all of these things already, or have at least thought about them, or else you wouldn't be here. I just needed to get it out.

I'm really not sure what I believe anymore. I don't really know what to call myself. I don't know what steps to take next, as I am in a sticky situation in a failing marriage living in Saudi Arabia of all places.
Thanks for listening.