First of all I would like to commend the site founders for their courageous efforts in trying to spread the truth as they see it .

Please dispose off this thread if it is not placed in the right forum.

My name is Syed XXXXXXXXXXXXXX ( I regard my anonymity as the only shield which protects me from them ).

You can call me Syed ,

I was born in the India .
I have lived most of my life in the MIDDLE EAST . My parents work there .

I am at present 17 years old . I was born into family of Sunni's . My grandfather is an ardent follower of Sunni customs . But he too questions some of the practices that have sprung up in India ..distorting the Islamic message even further ...
I was expected to become a good Muslim(Sunni) . follow the commandments and purge all evil from my heart .

I did what was required . At a young age , I became a devout muslim . I did not know the difference between Sunnis and Shias ... I did what I saw around me . I practised what was considered customary .

I literally felt the hand of GOD around me .. A protective layer of power surrounding me , guiding me do to what was right (traditionally ) . I was content with my beliefs .

All I was be a good person , ace all my classes and follow what had been passed down . You get the point ..

Something changed along the line . along the years my mentality changed . At 15 something I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism . I wasn't exactly crestfallen but I had my sorrow locked away deep inside . I had to tackle with the symptoms of the medical condition .

I prayed moderately . I later found hypnosis in around 2009 in the months following September .

I first checked if it was validated in Islam . Of course I turned to Muslim Clerics . They mostly rejected it as evil just like old Christian Priests .

I distanced subconsciously from traditional Islam a lil more .

I experimented with Hypnosis , found meditation .... experimented a lil more .... I was able to temporarily change my Iris colour to a lighter shade ( see Mind over Matter ) .. I secretly declared myself as an monotheist agnostic . I firmly believed that there is a god .... He is and he exists . I was not sure about religion but I remained spiritual . I reviewed all religions and found that they all suppressed new thought . They all wanted monopoly over the path to GOD .

So I furthered myself from Traditional Islam . I even asked my Grandpa if I could Follow just the Quran and nothing else . He answered in the affirmative . I rejoiced . I realized that Islam had been kept from me . A conspiracy it seemed . As of now I am an agnostic .

I discovered this site yesterday . Something urged me to google ''can I follow th Quran alone'' and ''are their only three prayers '' I don't know where these suggestions came from but they were as real as any other thought that takes it birth in the matrix of my being ( I feel that these suggestions were divine ).
Traditionalists would slaughter me for even thinking about these matters . But I felt that GOD is ablove this . Why would he provide me with a faculty to reason myself with the trivialities of the Universe ? Just to transform myself into a religious robot ?

Picking from where I left off .
I got a bible .... I examined it . It contained mainly stories moral ones , some were nasty by today's standards .
Oh have I mentioned that I am a conspiracy theorist . before discovering this site I was well aware of 9/11 conspiracies , illuminatist conspiracies and much more .

During my transition from Muslim to agnostic I prayed less and less fervently .... My Quranic recitations decreased day by day .

But now you have given me hope .

Wait .... I

At the time of writing this post I have suddenly recollected that I had prayed truly .asking the only GOD to guide me and ...asked him ..PLEASE LET ME KNOW YOU ...I INTEND TO RIGHT MY WRONGS ....

You see when I have a craving(prayer) for something GOD gives it to me when he sees fit ..all power if with him .I have this unusual craving for truth .

Example - I had this unusual craving/desire to know more about the mysterious nature of the human subconscious ... but all in vain a few days went by .... I took my mind off of it
I then went to a book store to buy some IIT-Jee books .... on a lonely shelf by the corner was a sole book
The power of your subconscious mind by Dr Joseph Murphy .. The title was enticing so I bought it then and there . I was able to use Hypnosis and Meditation to their true extents .

Now I have you .

I can restore my faith ....?

What I see in some religions like those eastern ones is their intuitive wisdom which overlaps with many Scientific concepts . I now believe that God tries to uplift everyone from ignorance of his existence by many ways . Indian seers(self-proclaimed) try to find GOD and together with their imaginations create religious concepts . May I remind you that hinduism is monotheistic in nature but it is ancient and has chnaged over the millenia .

Should I go by what GOD's book says or what sect/religion I was born into ?

I don't want to burn in hell forever .

I also always protested the Islamic concept of 'music is haraam'.
If Prophet David was given hymn . Why can't we use music .. ones of GOD's beautiful creations.

I am sorry the thread is incoherent and lacks taste and vigor .

I will write more about me soon .

Right at the moment I am behind hundreds of proxies using VPN tunnels .

I want to live to see the glory of GOD ( when alive) and then die to go to my creator .

Please pardon my typos ...