I'm really glad I came across Free Minds a few months back. It's so good to see that people are able to discuss God's revelation and to search for answers. I don't understand Arabic so I have to rely on translations and I am seeing that this can open up even more possible meanings or lead away from the truth. Most people here are sincerely searching for the truth and I truly appreciate the explanations given by various contributors on different verses of the Quran.
My Dad is English (Anglican) and my Mum is Malay (Sunni). Dad converted to Islam and had to get a Muslim name to marry Mum, but years on, he sees Islam as full of village beliefs and that totally put him off Islam. My siblings and I grew up knowing that you say Bismillah before sleeping and eating, you don't eat pig, you don't touch dogs bcoz they're dirty and you fast. My father always said to us, out of earshot from Mum, that he wanted us to have our own choice in what we believe or don't.
Anyway, when I was around 20, I really started my search for God and the true religion. I was completely open to Christianity or Islam. I prayed to God for guidance, searched through religious books and spoke to people....and one night I had an inspirational dream which made so much sense.
So I mixed with a Sunni converts group and the things I was reading in the Quran wasn't always making sense with what I was being taught by the Sunnis. I remember they said that the Quran doesn't tell you everything you need to do, so you need to follow hadiths and sunnas. So I went out searching for some books. I still remember reading one that said something about drinking the Prophet's urine was healing..... I was so disgusted! Every time I prayed, I wondered if we are supposed to pray to God alone, why were we calling on Muhammad and wishing blessings on him and his family? I wondered ' What about all the other Prophets?' So I had a few doubts and kept them for about 20 years.
Only last year, these doubts started to clear. Alhamdulillah! I started praying again and all the doubts
came back. A few google searches later and Islam started to make complete sense. My eyes had become clouded when reading with a preconceived idea in my mind. Many of the Sunni comments in the bottom of verses change the meaning of God's words.
Another of God's miracles in my life was this. My husband considered himself an atheist and only knew about Islam from what he saw on the news. One day last year, I called our twins 'My cute little Muslim babies!' This made hubby so mad and he told me 'Dont you ever call our boys that again!.... Anyway when I started praying again, I was searching in the Quran for how many times a day God wants us to pray. I asked hubby for his opinion and I'd read relevant verses from different translations to him and we'd end up spending a couple of hours at a time going over it all. Well 2 months after, my husband started praying and we pray as a family now. I am so thankful to God.
I wish all you brothers and sisters a happy journey with God's guidance and grace, inshallah