I've had similar experiences of this in my childhood as well,but just not as powerfull as the one i told you about. It's interesting that you have them too. But i must say i blocked them, out of fear. I have to get back to it. It has been a year (almost) since the last one .

Thank you ,everyone! D

Thank you. I've read the link
i certainly will keep reading and investigating

Peace

Hello Freedomstands,

I've been reading a lot of your posts actually. I read a lot of topics here on freeminds and you post here quite often . It's nice to finally meet you.
I've been reading various topics, for almost a year, but i'm still struggling to find the truth. A lot of people have their own perspective and understanding of differrent matters and that can be quite confusing. That's why i want to contribute to this forum, so i can discuss with people here and get motivated to do my own research.

I've always believed the traditional islam was the most perfect religion and their was no doubt about any of it. Why? Because like many others, i was too afraid to step out of the prison and see the whole situation with my own eyes instead of how the majority sees it and not question it.
But i was hypocritical, how and why did i think i should follow something i didn't have real knowledge of? I didn' even pray the way i should, and when i did, it felt like a chore/task i had to finish, there was no spiritual meaning linked to the salat whatsoever. Of course i was searching for some answers, but the typical answers from scholars didn't sound logical to me at all, but rather based of a forced perspective you get when you repeat it often enough,like brain washing.
During this time i met someone who showed me a video about those "new age stuff" things(dimensions/conscious/metaphysics), i was 18,schocked never heard of those things so you can imagine i started investigating.. Which led me to try meditating. I tried to focus on the creator, the one who created all ,the most powerfull. And the more i did this , strange things started happening. I fell a "presence" everytime i was going to sleep or meditate. It was too overwhelming, powerfull it made me cry and sometimes scared me because i felt i couldn't handle it. I just can't describe what i was feeling back then.. Maybe it was nothing really.. i still don't know till this day and i'm too scared to try again.. But since this started happening, i also used this "meditation" technique during the traditional salat. With the same strange feelings/effect. I stopped eventually because i was not sure if i was doing the right thing. But i never looked to prayer the same way again.. and from this experience everything started changing. I started asking a lot of questions in my mind... not getting any answers obviously, i read pieces of translated quran and tried to imagine what the quran really was trying to say and the possibilities of other meanings.. I ended up on freeminds forum and i was schocked to find a whole community who also had some same issues as me and rejected hadith.
Since than i started reading. But i haven't read enough... i still have a long way to go as i feel i'm starting from point zero.

this kind of was my little story.

Blessings,

x

Hello everyone! ,

After reading a lot of articles on freemind.org i decided to join! I am twenty years old, raised in a muslim family. Eventhough my family calls themselves "sunni" they are not religious at all, nor is anyone interferring with their choice of religous practices. Which of course, is great for me since i'm starting to have a whole other understanding of religion in general/islam . I joined this forum to discuss a lot of ideas with other people and gain knowledge. I still have a whole lot to learn,really. But there are some really intelligent individuals here so i'm sure i'll learn a lot of things. Hopefully, my time here will be spend effectively -) English is not my mother tong, so excuse me if i make any mistakes.

I'm looking forward to my time here on freeminds.org

Bless