My path to God Alone
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Peace to all....
I'm not sure where to begin, but it seems best to start by telling you that I am a homeopath/healer, by inherent tendancy, and nature. I came to Islam in 1989 after reading and loving the Qur'an. But when it came time to practice Islam, I practiced as I saw most everyone around me practicing--by ollowing the "sunnah" of hadiths. Honestly, I never personally took much stock in the hadith. At the beginning I bought all the "required" reading Bukhari, Al Muwatta, Muslim, etc. etc. I read some, but I wasn't compelled to read much and the books have set for years on my bookshelves, collecting dust. I wore a scarf as I had been told that it was required and to not wear it would send me packing to the hellfire and with all the scary hadith--gee! I wore it! I have never really liked it and at times, I downright resented it's presence around my neck--BLEH! But I kept wearing it, out of fear. As I studied homeopathy, anthroposophy and my other healing modalities, I came to understand more and more what relationship exists between the illnesses of our soul and the illness that finally shows up in our physical bodies. As I studied, I constantly referred to the Qu'ran as "al-Furqan"--the Criterion for what I was reading and consequently came to views on health/wellness/the soul that the average muslim might not ascribe to. At one point, here fairly recently, a muslimah friend of mine and I were discussing Tawheed. She wanted to know exactly what is tawheed. She had scoured many of the traditional sources of information, but could not come up with any meaningful or understandable definition of what tawheed really means. I thought about it for a while, reflecting on all the knowledge I had gleaned from other sources and I came up with this quote to give to her sun"Tawheed is recognizing the interconnectedness of all created things and the connection of all of creation back to its creator, Allah, and is the opposite to a belief in or recognition of the possibility of a state of separateness." sun Wow, little did I know where this realization was going to take us!! I got to thinking about all the things that separate me from others and how it causes illness. And I got to thinking about hijab and how it causes me to be and feel separate from others and even the earth--as I'm prevented from just walking outdoors when I'd like from my aggravation of having to hunt down a scarf and wear it. And I thought, this can't be right then... this idea of scarf wearing. This can especially be seen here in the Middle East where I live. Men and women at times, will stay apart like the plague, but on the other hand, there is rampant sexuality under the "covers" so to speak. And I'm not talking just about heterosexual, the division of the sexes has cause homosexuality to become rampant here. This is just too sick for me! So, I began looking around. How I found the website, Free-Minds, I do not remember, but once I did, I've not looked back. It all makes so much sense. However, my husband doesn't share my views or enthusiasm on the subject and I cannot talk to him about it. I tried to once, and he blew up and at first called me a "kafir" then renegged and said something to the effect that if he had said what I just said, people would call him a Kafir--thin veil, eh? He felt that I was insulting the Prophet and I said, how could that be so? brickwall That I felt that the Prophet was a very intelligent and guided man who had completed his work before he died. Anyway, who in the world was Bukhari and on what authority did he act? confused My husband was even more furious and said that if I kept this up, he'd kick me out of the house because I would be bad influence on our five daughters. ??? I stopped talking and left the room. Then I became physically ill for two weeks over the trauma of it all and I've given up speaking to him on the subject. But I must say that I feel much better, despite still having to wear a scarf due to my husband's point of view, knowing that I don't HAVE to wear it and my morality and the state of my soul are not dependent on my wearing it. Whew! Thank God! So, here I am, wanting to just burst out of it all and tell the world, but keeping things to myself to keep the peace. I put my faith, trust and hope in God for it all to work out for the best--some day.
So, in a nutshell, that's my story.Peace and wellness to you...
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Peace,
I wish you the best, and fight for it, for your daughters. God bless..........
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Salam sis,
I also wish you the very best!
I revert 1990 and I did also wear a scarves even if I disliked it (.
I did also argue alot with my husband and it finally led to divorce.
I also have 5 kids D
Where in the middle east are u living?
Take Care!
Sis Maria
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peace and welcome.
it still gives me a warm glow inside when i read people come to islam (compliance/surrender) after reading 'al quran' ('the reading'.
It is also interesting when people (especially newcomers to islam, not those brought up in a Muslim family) have an instinctive/natural negative reaction to the traditional/cultural baggage (i.e. ahadith)... this reminds me that the inner compass of human beings is still hardwired.
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It is also interesting when people (especially newcomers to islam, not those brought up in a Muslim family) have an instinctive/natural negative reaction to the traditional/cultural baggage (i.e. ahadith)... this reminds me that the inner compass of human beings is still hardwired.
I too have a negative reaction to the hadiths. When Muslims refuse to explain how they can pick and choose the hadiths they wish to incorporate into their beliefs, damn Muslims which follow different hadiths to hell, and at the same time refuse to recognize that there are "sects/denominations" within Islam, I become suspicious and scared.
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Salam sis,
I also wish you the very best!
I revert 1990 and I did also wear a scarves even if I disliked it (.
I did also argue alot with my husband and it finally led to divorce.
I also have 5 kids D
Where in the middle east are u living?Take Care!
Sis Maria
may allah show right path to all of us
may allah show a right path to all of us.
to wear scarf is not so much difficult , as u r projecting . my mother takes ( chador) a long piece to cover the hair and wrap around the body.
but my sis wear hijab ( that covers the face) sometime they says that they feel difficulty specially in the summer .......... but never says it like a big issue........... because it is to wear when u go outside ur home ..........
and my sister think that they get more respect and people show sobre behav with them than those who dont observe pardah.
the purpose of my msg is that to wear scarf is not so cumbersome as u r saying.
it seems the matter of person like and dislike.
take care
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Sounds like you're a man. If this is true, then...
I challenge you to wear a scarf "properly" for only one week. Not a bandana, a proper "hijab" (as people would define it). Preferably in the heat of summer, being sure to do activities outside, etc. Not to forget to let the other members of the household and general community nag you about wearing it, how you're wearing, when you're wearing it, and to wear it "just in case" someone might see, etc. Perhpaps then we'll be on a more even footing to discuss the matter. Till then..........
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Sounds like you're a man. If this is true, then...
I challenge you to wear a scarf "properly" for only one week. Not a bandana, a proper "hijab" (as people would define it). Preferably in the heat of summer, being sure to do activities outside, etc. Not to forget to let the other members of the household and general community nag you about wearing it, how you're wearing, when you're wearing it, and to wear it "just in case" someone might see, etc. Perhpaps then we'll be on a more even footing to discuss the matter. Till then..........As salamu alaykum wr wb.
Respectfully.I agreew ith you, wearing hijab is difficult, i have no idea how women in the Middle East can stand all the heat.
Welcome to the Forum and may The Almighty Allah, The ONE Who Sees, Hears and Knows ALL, helps you and bless you and reward you with Paradise.As salamu alaykum wr wb.
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A nice article have you written about your journey. Thanks.
May God be with you, help you & support you as have God supported pious women throughout history. Worthy of mention would be God's mention about the Pharoah's wife who was an example mentioned by God the Almighty, Himself. Blessed be God, Lord and Sustainer of the Worlds. )
