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Peace and blessings be upon all of you My name is Madiha and I'm an american egyptian living in cairo,egypt. My story... It started last week I happened to be saying prayers to Allah out loud with my husband, to guide me and him and bless us and many other things. I was very calm and sincere about it. It was a very intimate moment between us as I prayed (my husband I mean)... The next day, I was searching on google about the permissibility of wearing a wig in Islam (for fashion and only to mahram), when out of nowhere I came upon a wikipedia article called "Criticism of Hadith" and it intrigued me. I learned that there were various scholars and maybe even caliphs that apposed and rejected the collection of hadith, and this was the first time I ever knew anyone had rejected it entirely. I'm not sure but I think it mentioned a type of Muslim that follows the quran only and from there I did more research. Days went by in turmoil, insomnia, emotional breakdowns and intellectual debates. My brain hurt so bad from thinking back and forth, checking verse by verse cited by "Quranists" about how Allah mentions in the Quran not to follow hadith and how doing so is enjoining partners with Allah. I would fall asleep forcibly with my iphone still in my hand sometimes, trying to stay up and verify everything I was reading, and praying to Allah to guide me on the straight path and please don't let me go astray and be like the ones you have veiled and blinded. I became obsessed. And very upset. "No..I couldn't have been wrong all my life..verily I was a Muslim..my parents couldn't have raised me wrong? I couldn't have possibly been lied to all my life, that was the "unbelievers" that live that life. That life of shirk. I'm sure I'm on the right path...all I do is follow Allah and his Messenger! What's wrong with that?" I thought. Every time I had questions I begged Allah to guide me and keep me straight and not to let me go astray. And after each time I discovered new sources of information pertaining the fabrication of hadith and how Allah warned us of doing the same as the people of the previous scriptures. It was when I bumped into a video of Teddy3indc on youtube, who recommended everyone watch 3 videos by a user named Humblservant, because she cited from the Quran the entire time, supporting the permissibility of following hadith other than Allah's. Her videos are called "Hadith...is it islam?" if you want to look it up. I admit I first looked into so called Quranism with a skeptic eye, but that's what anyone with any sense would do. I was SO SCARED. I was TERRIFIED that I might be doing something wrong or that I was going astray,...or even worse..that this IS the truth and that I've been lied to since I was born and never knew islam for what it really is. I am at part to blame. I called myself a muslim since birth yet I had never ONCE read the entire quran from cover to cover. I never completed it. Not even in ramadan. And whatever it is I had read, it wasn't significant, and I do realise I may have emphasized the hadith too much. For some reason I didn't understand why Allah would keep repeating the same warnings over and over again in the Quran, especially aimed at a people that were before the Quran....so hadith seemed more "detailed" and tailored to tell me specifically right from wrong. Although I didn't like hadith most of the time, I bit my tongue and took it, not all the time of course, but I believed that I couldn't say a hadith is false, because I wouldn't really know and if I was wrong I would suffer for assuming. And that if one was wrong, then the rest don't hold water and I didn't want to disobey Allah, thinking to myself "Who am I to question Allah's will and wisdom?". Little did I know I wasn't following Allah's will and words at all.......... Anyways..I have to tell you how I felt after watching Humblservant's video. I felt FREE! I felt like I finally got the answers I was looking for all my life. And that Allah answered my prayers. And that every doubt I had about hadith in the past was absolutely right, but I hadn't dared to act on it! I felt like the hugest weight was lifted off my shoulders. My constant feeling of guilt, shame and worthlessness was GONE. You know, how you feel for not doing every little thing required in "Islam" and giving up entirely out of frustration and the inability to maintain it. I was worried at first if this was the feeling of emptiness I had when I left islam as an early teen (13 yrs) and converted to Christianity due to my lack of knowledge in Islam...but it wasn't. I felt totally and utterly free! I felt free of the prejudice and opinions of the clergies and scholars! I felt free from the "responsibility/burden" to carry out every hadith, or at least believe in them, however twisted they sounded. I felt free in knowing the Creator guided me and answered my prayers! Insha Allah I felt free and at awe at the inconceivable mercy Allah has bestowed on his worshippers. That Islam DOESN'T have to be SO HARD. I felt free knowing that there IS HOPE FOR MY SOUL! That If I just did the basics Allah asks in the Quran..THAT I STAND A CHANCE!! Insha Allah! I felt free and not so guilty and heavy hearted! I thank Allah for guiding me, al hamd lilah! I hope Allah always guides me to the straight path, whatever that may be, till the day I die.. Having said all that up there...anyone else experiencing a loss of "guilt" and shame? For some reason I feel like that was the only thing that connected me to Allah. That constant fear, guilt and shame for not meeting up to Allah's commands. I know Allah says you should fear him...but I can't help but just LOVE him and revere him and praise him...somehow I feel that Allah isn't "there" when I feel this liberation and burden-lifted after supposedly finding the truth. Why is that? Does anyone know what I'm talking about? I also have this overwhelming feeling of the absence of shaytan. I don't know how to explain it...but it's as if he doesn't exist to me! I can't hear his whispers...I dunno why but whatever voice is in my head...it feels like my own. Anyone else feel this? Thanks for going through my really long intro, but I just had to get it out there! I want the whole world to know I will no longer worship anything but Him, and that I bear witness there is no God but Allah! ) ) ) ) ) Salamz! Salam and welcome Great introduction . God blees you Peace )

Thanks.

Peace sameer. Welcome to the forum. You are interested in God s creatures. But remember brother , in the end only, God Alone matters. Peace.

welcome and GOD bless.... peace

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welcome sun I hope we can Stay longer and sharing more topics here bravo

Peace dear sister ) So nice to see that you put a video up! Welcome to the forums! sun Thank you! I hope to post more videos as I learn more and more. Peace! O0

I'm an American woman who found Islam about 9 years ago. I'm here because my personal beliefs no longer fit in with what is considered main stream Islam, and I don't know how to deal with it or how to tell people. I need some guidance. I was immeidately attracted to it because it seemed simple and clear cut. I prayed faithfully, fasted enthusiastically, and started wearing hijab almost immediately because that's what I thought was expected of me. I learned from sources mostly online, but also by reading books, watching videos, and learning from other Muslims. Islam for me filled in so many holes in belief that I had as a Christian. I was taught how the Bible was so corrupt and I realized that I couldn't possibly base my beliefs on something obviously not divine. Now I find myself feeling the same way about Hadith. I just don't understand how a religion which is supposed to be complete and easy to understand has become something that some Muslims claim cannot be fully understood, especailly without understanding Arabic or being a scholar. The Quran claims to be a book fully detailed, yet so many things exist in Hadith that are not even mentioned in Quran. Would God really forget to leave these things out? NO. I know that the majority of you in this forum know all of these things already, or have at least thought about them, or else you wouldn't be here. I just needed to get it out. I'm really not sure what I believe anymore. I don't really know what to call myself. I don't know what steps to take next, as I am in a sticky situation in a failing marriage living in Saudi Arabia of all places. Thanks for listening. Salam and welcome your story is almost the same as mine-and I accepted the Sunni Islam and lived until the bitter end. Blessed be God that he has awakened us and guided to the right path! Be just careful because you are in a difficult situation - but I trust in God. He will give you strength and help you. It is always difficult to admit that one has followed a phantom. However, everything has a meaning, and also the fact that you are sitting now in Saudi. The Prophet once was all alone group Salams )

only if we come out of online forum and start mingling among ourselves. hope to see the day soon where we have a place and community to call it ours and for us to socialise, prayer hall/mosque and the least to marry which is again a quite an obstacle to physically find someone from submitters to date.......... lol Peace makk, You are not the only one that feels this way. I think a lot of us think about whether or not we will ever have the opportunity to marry someone that shares our beliefs. Peace. You are definitely not alone. I feel alone too sometimes..but this forum is a great place for us. I agree with the post above that we should come out of the woodwork at some point! Though, I think I am too scared to even speak out about my beliefs at the moment. -[ Peace, I have come out of my shell just a bit at work. People began asking why I took off my scarf and I shared with them my understanding and reasoning. Keep in mind there are two other muslim women who cover at my job, and two brothers, so I am sure that word will get around as to why I feel the way I do. Well, little did I know there was another muslim woman that worked here and she too stopped covering. She now is the head of a major program in Washigton D.C., and I have seen her before...I wonder if she too is a Qur'an only muslim. Sorry, got off track there, but I can understand the resistance to speak out on your beliefs. I think as long as we keep it respectful and point out that we understand both sides of the issue, we can minimize any argumentative behavior. Of course, we will ALWAYS have those sectarians that won't hear a word we say and will immediately become defensive. May Allah guide them to the truth. Peace, Amina

Shalom Aleikhem, Welcome to Free-minds. ) I tried to find your channel, but could not. Perhaps you can provide a link to that channel. Peace ----------- Student of Allah

Shalom Aleikhem, Take it as a figure of speech, not a scientific statement. Instead of getting hung up on the words, thou shall focus on the thought behind the words. For then thee shall realize how God sees without having eyes. Peace ------------ Student of Allah do u normally speak like this in real life? it seems I am reading a bible....

Peace H.A.J, I don't believe in deviding into sects and refuse to call myself anything but muslim. My personal motto is Islam is the answer. You don't want to identify yourself as Quranist, but what you are doing here is no different. Why don't you translate these words? Try it. A warm welcome by the way. Abdelilah

Welcome aboard! I'm new as well ). Where are you from?

Ammi? I thought you were a mum.

Peace and Welcome peace It's a nice thing that you're here to learn and expand your horizon ! Recommended readings The Original purpose of our creation http//free-minds.org/forum/index.php?topic=9603282.0 God's System of Righteousness (The Reward system for those who are Nice/Benevolent) http//free-minds.org/forum/index.php?topic=9602900 God's Systems of Guidance and Misguidance http//free-minds.org/forum/index.php?topic=9603904.0 7 "Hells", 2 Heavens, and a "Purgatory" http//free-minds.org/forum/index.php?topic=9603259 Forgive & you'll be Forgiven http//free-minds.org/forum/index.php?topic=9603142 God Loves/doesn't Love http//free-minds.org/forum/index.php?topic=9603058.0 ~ God's Unconnditional servants ~ http//free-minds.org/forum/index.php?topic=9603053 Why language is irrelevant! http//free-minds.org/forum/index.php?topic=9603266.0

i'm not sure, but i still have the Pinyin notes that i took. right now i'm kind of learning Spanish and practicing my French. Leaving Mandarin to the experts

Peace Adrian, Their recompense is forgiveness from their Lord, and gardens with flowing streams; they abide therein forever. What a blessed reward for the workers! Welcome Peace O0

Welcome! )

Salaam, voodoo I agree on my mistake but I disagree on the red part. My words were in BLACK and not in BLUE ignore Salaam, Bender Peace Bender...you got me!!! peace

Salaam Steven you are welcome. I have only one advice for you. Never confound straight path with truth. You will meet the true truth only in the judgement day . Peace