Peace Wakas.
I read your story for the first time. I am pleasantly surprised.
We have similar stories brother.
The cleansing process will take time. The learning process will take even more time. A lot of patience is required.
GOD s mercy is always near for those who will seek Him Alone and His word is the light that guides them from the darkness.
It is a fact that God is the Truth (Al-Haq), while the setting up of any idols beside Him constitutes a falsehood, and that God is the Most High, the Supreme. (Al- Alei, Al-Kabeer)
.... God is the best Protector, and, of all the merciful ones, He is the Most Merciful."
Such is God's grace that He bestows upon whomever He wills. God is Possessor of Infinite Grace. (Thul fadl alatheem)
Say, "Our Lord will gather us all together before Him, then He will judge between us equitably. He is the Judge, the Omniscient." (Al-Fattah)
As for those who repent, reform, and proclaim, I redeem them. I am the Redeemer, Most Merciful. (Al-Tawwab)
GOD bless you.
Peace.